saptadasa

[mastergin]

Daily Zen:

"The purpose of life is to love whoever is around to be loved.."

There are many things that confuse me in this world. Things I have yet to understand. A part of me is happy with that. The less I understand the more I have to learn. Learning is a part of growing. And no one truly stops growing.

Last night I learned I was not the only person confused with their own thoughts.
I learned that strangers can become friends and are far easier to talk to than they should.
I learned how to dance.
I learned I take things too seriously and should relax.
I have learned that clubs are not for me.
I have learned I am an idiot and a fool.

I am looking forward to going home. And having time to think about these new things I have leaned.


(ooc: Strikes deleted. ^^ Rin took Gin out to a club after Gin left the party earlier, they talked, they went clubbing, Rin showed him how to dance a bit more~)

Comments

[master-of-zen.livejournal.com]

Tennis is a little different. I understand some people like to make comparisons, however I can not see it. Nor do I just want to do it.

I am sure you will, Hirakoba.

[gouya-killer.livejournal.com]

No one's saying to just do it. believe me, it doesn't work well with a random person, if that's not how you go. But don't be afraid to ask questions, or even experiment, if you're comfortable with someone.

[master-of-zen.livejournal.com]

Asking questions... is easier said than done. I know you have a point though. And I know you are right, to a certain extent. Experimentation is... something I had not thought about. And now that I am giving it some thought (it would be rude of me not to, since you brought it up) I find there are few people I would feel comfortable enough to do that with. And fewer still who would agree, or feel comfortable, to be an experiment.

[gouya-killer.livejournal.com]

Well, you can ask any questions you want of me. I'll certainly give you a straight answer...so to speak~ As for experimentation...that's completely up to you, though I think that, if you consider it carefully enough, you know just who would be willing to help you with any degree of experiment. It might be best if you avoided experiments with those that might get...attached, though.

[master-of-zen.livejournal.com]

I will remember that, thank you, Hirakoba.

If I think carefully enough... I still am not sure who that could be. And just how, do you find someone who will not get attached? ... More importantly, why am I even giving this serious thought? I must be out of my mind.

[gouya-killer.livejournal.com]

Any time, Genie.

How do you find someone? Either you find someone who isn't into the whole relationship and love thing, or you find someone that's too hung up on someone else to be able to be attached to you~ No, you're not...you're simply going through what we all do at some point.

[master-of-zen.livejournal.com]

That... narrows things down. That is nice of you to say. I still feel like I have lost my mind.

[gouya-killer.livejournal.com]

Not too narrow, I hope? It's also the truth. It's called growing up, Gin. It hurts and makes you feel like everything's gone crazy. But it has to happen sometime.

[master-of-zen.livejournal.com]

It narrowed it to two. Possibly three. I know that you are right... Does not make it easier.

[gouya-killer.livejournal.com]

You have no idea how badly I want names, now~! Welcome to life, Genie...if it were easy, this conversation would never have happened, because the one in New York wouldn't, either.

[master-of-zen.livejournal.com]

Telling you names could do one of two things. Cause trouble and embarrassment, or they could read this and agree. The latter would cause embarrassment too. Life is a lot more complex than I was given to understand...

[gouya-killer.livejournal.com]

Awww, come on~! Just a little whisper in my ear~? Life is pain, Gin...anyone who tells you different is just trying to sell you something.

[master-of-zen.livejournal.com]

Your name is on that list, if you must know. That is a very pessimistic way of looking at things.

[gouya-killer.livejournal.com]

I must know, and I'm flattered ♥ Pessimistic, yes, but that just mean that life's joys can make an even bigger impression~

[master-of-zen.livejournal.com]

Flattered is much easier to accept than being angry. For that I am glad. I see... An interesting perspective, but I can see how that would work.

[gouya-killer.livejournal.com]

Why would I be angry~? Did you miss the part where I told you that I find you attractive? Let's just say that experimenting with you would be far from a hardship~ It doesn't work for everyone, but it does work for me, so I guess that's the important thing.

[master-of-zen.livejournal.com]

I should probably be a little concerned how easily you accepted that... That is the important thing, yes.

[gouya-killer.livejournal.com]

Don't worry, I'm not as big of a whore as that made me sound~ Believe it or not, my...range of experimentation is quite low.

[master-of-zen.livejournal.com]

I did not mean... I had meant, though the words I used were completely different, that I had not expected you to so easily agree. Even though, yes, I was aware you found me attractive. That, coupled with the open teasing and the fact that you have made it clear you would not mind... That is the reason. Not because I thought... you were... ... I have managed to embarrass myself now.

[gouya-killer.livejournal.com]

Don't be embarassed, Gin. I was more joking then anything else~ I really am flattered that you would be interested, and I'm just saying that the interest is returned. No embarassment, no feeling bad.

[master-of-zen.livejournal.com]

Then I will try to not be so embarrassed... or bad.