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Daily Zen:

"The obscure we see eventually. The completely obvious, it seems, takes longer."

I have a job. A tentative one. The pay is minimal and that is fine with me, I was surprised they would want to pay me in the first place.

I will work at a temple again. In a teaching capacity. There are children there. I will study with one of the monks there before being allowed to take on the role myself. I am looking forward to this.

But the pay is not for teaching. I will also help in work around the temple. Fixing. Moving objects. Assisting in the many repairs that need to be preformed.

It will be nice to be a part of a temple again... I have missed that stability.

In the meantime I have an apparent training regime, created by Bane-san. The weights are not that much. I have a habit of wearing such things anyway, it is a small addition to what I do now. So I have asked to increase the amount. It seems to have been met with approval.

I will start my new training immediately after school today. Until the sun goes down I will train.

Current Mood: good

Daily Zen:

"A wise man makes his own decisions, an ignorant man follows the public opinion."

I would like to thank Tachibana-san and his sister for allowing me to attend their party yesterday. I would also like to wish An-san a very happy birthday. It was a lovely party and I was happy to be invited. ~~Even though I... felt far more awkward than I possibly should have, given the circumstances.~~

We returned back without Miyuki-chan who had made plans to stay the night. Senri very nearly fell asleep on my shoulder during the train ride back.

I have suggested next weekend, or, if we have free time through the week, that we take a trip to see Shiraishi and how he is doing. He has an apartment now. I would like to see it. And to see with my own eyes that he is well.

Until then I have homework to complete and then I will leave the dorms to visit the tennis courts. I have training I need to do.

Current Mood: calm

Daily Zen:

"When something has happened,
Do not talk about it.
it is hard to collect spilled water."

Once more I have not been online very much over the last week or so. My apologise. I do forget I even own a computer some days.

Today I have a rare day alone here in my dorm room, as I have forced, shall be say, Senri to go and see his bestfriend. I heard that he was protesting visiting due to his saving for a bed. A ridiculous reason. He should see his friends. They are far more important than something as frivolous as a bed.

We can continue to save and will have enough despite visiting. I hope that he knows that now.

This is all distraction, really. I understand that the team are upset over Shiraishi leaving. I am, myself... however... I know something that are not yet ready to understand.

This will be best for him. He does not belong here any longer. He is always, and will always, be our dear friend and beloved Buchou. His path... at this moment... lays somewhere else.

Perhaps there will be a time in the future when our paths will inter-connect. I truly hope that they do.

Current Mood: calm

Daily Zen:

"Do not permit the events of your daily life to bind you, but never withdraw yourself from them."

Perhaps my actions of yesterday could be classed as an 'act of stupidity'. I know of at least one person who would agree with this. I would call it an act of hope.

Maybe it worked, maybe it did not. I do not know and feel it is not my place to press. I will accept.

And I will meditate.

If anyone needs me from now until midnight, you know where to find me.

Current Mood: calm

Daily Zen:

"He who wherever he goes is attached to no person and to no place by ties of flesh; who accepts good and evil alike, neither welcoming the one nor shrinking from the other — take it that such a one has attained Perfection."

It is strange how you can find yourself busy, though when you look back on your time you find it hard to remember quite what had you so busy.

Life, lately, seems to have been that way.

A single break from the monotony came from Senri inviting me to spend the weekend at the beach. He neglected to warn me, however, that it would include him stripping during the night and winding himself about me. It was a... confusing moment. He was asleep, so I will not take it to mean anything more than it was.

I will admit to a small part of myself that is curious to take that test I have seen many post. I am not, however, under any illusions as to what my result would be.

Which is why I am not going to do it.

(ooc: Strikes so very deleted)

Current Mood: calm

Daily Zen:

"We shape clay into a pot, but it is the emptiness inside that holds whatever we want."

I have neglected this journal. I can not say it is for any reason other than a forgetful mind.

I could not even say what it is I have been doing. Exploding my new surroundings. Finding that new people are far more curious about me than I would have imagined. And training. I have enjoyed my matches with Kabaji-kun, Bane-kun and Amane-kun.

Also, I did want to thank you again, Kabaji-kun, for your help with... my project. I hope that she likes it.

Current Mood: calm

Daily Zen:

"Vision without action is a daydream. Action without vision is a nightmare."

Normally I am not such a busy person. I have always taken my time. However, this weekend I found myself very busy. And, stranger still, I enjoyed it.

I enjoyed visiting with Rin and meeting his sister.

I enjoyed training with Kabaji-kun, Bane-kun and his friend. And learning something new.

I enjoyed spending time with Senri. I was able to see his creative side. It seems I am finding a deeper appreciation for the arts, lately.

As much as I have enjoyed being so active over the last few days. I will be happy to slow down and get along with my school work.

Current Mood: calm

Daily Zen:

"And the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first time."

I wished to thank all who came to the party Wednesday. It went well, I believe. Though I think that will be the first and only time I organise a party. It was shockingly stressful. ~~Though seeing Shiraishi happy was more than worth it.~~

I have a busy weekend ahead of me. I promised Rin I would bring books to him for his sister tomorrow. Sunday I meet with Kabaji-kun to play tennis. Sunday night I hope to do something with Senri. I have yet to think of what that would be. Unless he is busy, then I will go to the beach and meditate until sunset.

Current Mood: calm

Daily Zen:

"The art of teaching is clarity and the art of learning is listening."

Saturday I took Shiraishi to one of his clubs. He seemed to enjoy it. Though I did have to hold him for the duration, as his leg has not completely healed yet. He did not seem to mind.

I had an interesting time there. It was very different from the one that Rin took me to in New York.

[Screened From Shiraishi:]

This Wednesday at 6:30pm there will be a part on the beach in honour of Shiraishi's birthday. His friends have all been invited. Though this invitation goes to those who would like to join in the party. Shiraishi likes a crowd, it would seem. All are welcome.

Current Mood: calm

Daily Zen:

"One who conquers himself is greater than another who conquers a thousand times a thousand on the battlefield."

It would seem this month marks the beginning of some very strange things. Good things. New things. And very strange things.

As of this morning I have decided to make it my job to have Shiraishi-kun up and out of his dorm by 6am to come and sit with me. We will meditate. Exercise. And then I will walk him to his first class of the day.
I have also made it my job to do something else. I will need to talk to all of the Shitenhoji team about that.
I also plan to take him somewhere this weekend. The two of us.

I am worried for a friend I, perhaps, should not be.

And... it seems, Rin, that you were wrong. It was never my move to take. It was taken for me. I now have what I wanted, though I did little to attain it myself.

Current Mood: determined

Daily Zen:

"Thousands of candles can be lit from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened."

There is little I can say about my date with Hirakoba that has not already been said. Except to say that the gardens we visited were truly beautiful and I wish to return there one day.

And yes, I did kiss him, and I enjoyed it. Possibly this is something I should not talk about, however he has openly admitted it and I would not want to cheapen that moment by not acknowledging it. I do not deny it nor to I regret it happening, though it was a first and a last for is. Perhaps the beauty of the sakura tempted our emotions... I am not sure.

That was yesterday. And today I am moments from leaving my computer to go and place a call to my sister. I would like to see how she is doing today.

Current Mood: calm

Daily Zen:

"There is a reality. We are that reality. When you understand this, you see that you are nothing, and in being nothing, you are everything."

I arrived at Rokkaku dorms late last night to find my things had arrived before me. I am glad. Though this now means that the next few days will be spent organising everything.

Perhaps my memory is bad, I had not realised I would be sharing a room with Senri. I am happy to share a room with him. I am just wondering... how it could have slipped my mind.

I should search the grounds when I have the chance. I should get to know this school I will call home.

And this weekend I must meet with Hihakoba. He insists it is a date, so perhaps I should call it one also...

Current Mood: busy

Daily Zen:

"Everything that irritates us about others can lead us to a better understanding of ourselves."

There are few times in my life I have been truly angry.

Coming home and seeing Namari cry is one. Seeing the bruises to her arms and knowing the cause was not a fall, a bump or childish silliness gone wrong. They were inflicted upon her by people with no right to raise even a voice to her.

I could not resist any longer and I went to speak with those people. I hope they understood my words well and they will never touch her again.

Now I must leave... It is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I do not wish to leave her side... I do not want to leave my family. I know I must.

Current Mood: angry

Daily Zen:

"The purpose of life is to love whoever is around to be loved.."

There are many things that confuse me in this world. Things I have yet to understand. A part of me is happy with that. The less I understand the more I have to learn. Learning is a part of growing. And no one truly stops growing.

Last night I learned I was not the only person confused with their own thoughts.
I learned that strangers can become friends and are far easier to talk to than they should.
I learned how to dance.
I learned I take things too seriously and should relax.
I have learned that clubs are not for me.
~~I have learned I am an idiot and a fool.~~

I am looking forward to going home. And having time to think about these new things I have leaned.

(ooc: Strikes deleted. ^^ Rin took Gin out to a club after Gin left the party earlier, they talked, they went clubbing, Rin showed him how to dance a bit more~)

Current Mood: tired

Daily Zen:

"From the withered tree, a flower blooms."

The matches were, of course, all very well played. I was impressed with everyone's performance.

And soon we will be returning home. And soon I will be able to see my sister. ~~And soon I will be able to talk to the people who have been looking after her and mistreating her.~~

Before I can return home, however... something difficult stands in my way... I hope to overcome this problem tonight.

(ooc: ... ^^ Gin can't dance.)

Current Mood: calm

Daily Zen:

"Sometimes, simply by sitting, the soul collects wisdom."

I will be taking my brother and that sleepy boy from Hyoutei to Central Park today.

I had looked up Buddhist areas in the city. However all I found were classes to teach meditation and... churches. That feels far too much like organised religion. I may go to see... But I will not participate.

Current Mood: busy

Daily Zen:

"Never pretend to a love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command."

Chaotic. Rushed. Impossible. Crowded. Disturbing. Urban mayhem. This city is my least favourite that we have visited. There are very few reasons for me to even want to step outside of this hotel.

One such reason would be to visit central park. I have heard it is a nice place to visit. I will do that at the next given opportunity and then I will return back to the hotel.

I will feel better when we are home again.

Current Mood: indescribable

I have spent most of today in deep meditation. I am planning a brief trip back to the Zu Lai Temple. Perhaps there I will be able to relax more.

I took time out to speak with Koharu-san and my brother. As well as my little sister. She seemed... distracted. It could have been me who was distracted. I will have to ask her again tomorrow, or she may tell Tetsu. I shall wait and see.

Current Mood: indescribable

It is a peculiar thing when speaking to strangers, the things you learn.

I have learnt today that one of the players on this tournament also has sisters back home. Sisters that he misses and speaks to via his computer. I was intrigued.

After some more talking I made a call to home, I inquired about a internet camera.

Suffice to say in half an hour I will be meeting Ibu-kun in his room to talk to Namari. I will get to see her. I have not seen her in far too long... Tetsu, if you have time, perhaps you would like to join us?

(ooc: If there is one sure thing that will make Gin happy, it's his sister. So this good news will also come along with easier smiles and an easier to deal with Gin. ^^ He's happy and excited and looking forward to speaking to his little sister!)

Current Mood: happy

You know who you are. And you'll know why I will be refusing to speak to you for the duration of this tournament.

I have no words to express my... annoyance... ~~Or my headache.~~

At least I was able to buy Namari the things she requested.

(ooc: I am going to assume that someone managed to get Gin high... he would have been a LOT more talkative and happy than what you would normally see. He would have danced with people. And for some unknown reason, one he will refuse to talk about, he and Chitose made out. He is trying to convince himself it was a drug-induced hallucination though. ^^)

Current Mood: uncomfortable

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