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[mastergin]

Daily Zen:

"One who conquers himself is greater than another who conquers a thousand times a thousand on the battlefield."

It would seem this month marks the beginning of some very strange things. Good things. New things. And very strange things.

As of this morning I have decided to make it my job to have Shiraishi-kun up and out of his dorm by 6am to come and sit with me. We will meditate. Exercise. And then I will walk him to his first class of the day.
I have also made it my job to do something else. I will need to talk to all of the Shitenhoji team about that.
I also plan to take him somewhere this weekend. The two of us.

I am worried for a friend I, perhaps, should not be.

And... it seems, Rin, that you were wrong. It was never my move to take. It was taken for me. I now have what I wanted, though I did little to attain it myself.

Comments

[gouya-killer.livejournal.com]

I'd congratulate you, but I don't believe in happy shit right now. So pretend this is a good comment and I'll give you a better one some day.

[master-of-zen.livejournal.com]

Rin...
... I see. Very well.

[gouya-killer.livejournal.com]

No, you don't see. I'll tell you more about it...later.

I'm sorry I snapped at you, Gin. Reading that came at a bad time. I really am happy for you.

[master-of-zen.livejournal.com]

You do not need to explain anything to me, Rin. Nor do you need to apologise. I was not upset. And I am sorry my words came at a bad time for you.

[gouya-killer.livejournal.com]

I do need to apologize. You don't.

And I do, because what I have to say may change a lot about your perceptions of me.

[master-of-zen.livejournal.com]

Then you are forgiven.

The way you say that implies something bad has happened. Does this mean you would want me to think badly of you?

... We can talk. I will listen. And my understanding of you may chance, but my friendship will not.

[gouya-killer.livejournal.com]

Want you to think badly of me? No. Will you anyway? That...remains to be seen.

Don't promise things until you know the whole story, please....

[master-of-zen.livejournal.com]

I will make the promise. Because I know. And I want to hear the whole story from you.

[gouya-killer.livejournal.com]

Next time I see you online, then. I'll at least give you the overview. Not sure about details.

[master-of-zen.livejournal.com]

I will take what I can get.

[gouya-killer.livejournal.com]

As long as you're not worring. I'm fine. Mostly.

[master-of-zen.livejournal.com]

I worry. But I trust you to take care of yourself. Mostly.

[gouya-killer.livejournal.com]

Mostly?

[master-of-zen.livejournal.com]

It would seem taking care of yourself is limited to "not dying". Getting hurt does not factor in to that. ... And you are not the only one with that philosophy.

[gouya-killer.livejournal.com]

Not dying is very important, though. If I get hurt, it just means I have to be more careful next time.